I had my baby!

Jackson Ralph "Jack" was born on July 11, 2010 at 2:13 am. Things are hectic around here and I am running on very little sleep. I have really neglected my blog and I see a ton of ads and spam posts in my comments section which I need to clean up, grrrrrr. But I am still having issues with my denture not staying tightened, so will keep you posted on that when we figure out what it is. I am praying that it will resolve itself and it was just the pregnancy making it that way. I will try to post more when I have more time!

All went well

Just a quick update to let you guys know that my dr said the growing tissue is just related to the pregnancy and is totally normal. He said that after I have the baby it should shrink back down, so if he isnt worried I will try not to be. Now if they could just figure out why my denture wont stay tightened, I would be a very happy camper!

Thursday

SO, my appointment went not so great. First, they tightned the denture again (which is already starting to loosen again). It is still problematic that its loosening up but they havent given up hope yet. Then they saw the little lumps I was talking about. I know its never good when they bust out the camera and start taking pictures of the inside of my mouth. It usually means WTF is this and once again makes me feel like some kind of medical freakshow. Sigh.

So I have to go back Thursday to see the head oral surgeon. They want him to look at the lumps. They are in the exact same area as the others so they think its just more of the excess tissue but a lot of it is really red and inflamed. One of the residents who looked at it said he thought maybe because they are all in the area in the front where the plate is exposed a bit (the area that never closed up all the way, about 1 cm long) that it is trying to cover up that open area but not sure where to grow so its growing crazy all over the area. So I guess that would be a good thing....meaning my body is healthy and trying to heal itself still, but also not good because it is making SO much of it. They cant cover up that little exposed area either, because of the placement of it, so I just wonder when will it stop growing? I am scared because I know they are going to have to go in and cut it off. I am also scared of them taking the teeth off and not being able to get them back on. It terrifies me. Its really affecting everything about me, I am depressed and cant sleep much. I feel sick all the time. I am trying not to let it get to me but its terifying not knowing what is going to happen.

As usual, I'll let you guys know more when I know more.

So anxious I feel sick

Tomorrow I have to go and do what I have been putting off for 2 weeks now. My so called "permanent" denture has been becoming increasingly loose again. I feel so scared to go in because I keep having nightmares they will take them off and I will, once again, have no teeth. I literally have nightmres about it at night and havent been able to sleep well all week just being scared of it. I just do not understand why it will not stay tightened and am so scared it is one of my actual implants that is loose in the bone. If I lose that implant, then all is lost as I have no more bone down there to hold anymore implants to replace it and cant stand the thought of yet another painful bone grafting surgery from my hips. I just cant do that again.

To make this all even more frightening, I was looking in there last night, and in the front where they kept removing that excess tissue (the one they sent off to pathology to make sure it wasnt a recurrence) is more excess tissue coming out from underneath the denture! There are two pink lumps of it squeezing their way out from underneath, and now I can feel another in the back as well so it is a fairly good sized lump. I dont understand why it wont stop growing and am wondering if its the pregnancy that is making it go haywire.

I am just sick with worry over all of this. I feel as if I will never, ever, ever be done worrying about it all, and just wish life could go back to normal again. Its been so long I dont even remember what normal is.

I have been negligent...brief update with pictures!

and I apologize! 10 lashes with a wet noodle for me! But, I am 13 weeks pregnant, and having a bit of a rough time of it with the sickness and sleepiness! I swear I will be back again more when I have more energy.

In this case, no news doesnt neccessarily mean good news. The permanent teeth are in, but giving me problems. For some reason it will not stay tightened. This is not normal, as it should be nice and tight, always, being at the end of all of this. The doctors arent sure what to do with me (as usual). I just keep going in to get it tightened over and over again. It is frustrating and scary to say the least.

They think the issue is the fact I only have one implant on the right, because we lost one in between the far right implant and the middle one. So it is doing all the work for that side of my mouth. Unfortunately, there is not enough bone in the area to put another implant in (my idea) which is why we lost that one in the first place). So you can see why we are at a standstill right now.

Here are a couple of pictures. This one is of my panoramic, you can see all of the metal (titanium bar, and the 4 remaining implants of the 5 they initially put in), as well as the lone implant on the right doing all the work for my entire lower jaw. You can see what the issue is when you see the huge gap, I'm sure:


The permanent bridge before it went in. The metal holes are where they stick the screws through that then screw down onto my implants:



And a belly pic of me at 13 weeks with our last baby, just for posterity, and because I am so excited in the midst of all this anxiety over what's going to happen with my teeth:



I'll keep you guys posted more when I know more about what they are going to do with me. Thank you for remaining my faithful readers!