Sunday, January 31, 2010

So anxious I feel sick

Tomorrow I have to go and do what I have been putting off for 2 weeks now. My so called "permanent" denture has been becoming increasingly loose again. I feel so scared to go in because I keep having nightmares they will take them off and I will, once again, have no teeth. I literally have nightmres about it at night and havent been able to sleep well all week just being scared of it. I just do not understand why it will not stay tightened and am so scared it is one of my actual implants that is loose in the bone. If I lose that implant, then all is lost as I have no more bone down there to hold anymore implants to replace it and cant stand the thought of yet another painful bone grafting surgery from my hips. I just cant do that again.

To make this all even more frightening, I was looking in there last night, and in the front where they kept removing that excess tissue (the one they sent off to pathology to make sure it wasnt a recurrence) is more excess tissue coming out from underneath the denture! There are two pink lumps of it squeezing their way out from underneath, and now I can feel another in the back as well so it is a fairly good sized lump. I dont understand why it wont stop growing and am wondering if its the pregnancy that is making it go haywire.

I am just sick with worry over all of this. I feel as if I will never, ever, ever be done worrying about it all, and just wish life could go back to normal again. Its been so long I dont even remember what normal is.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I have been negligent...brief update with pictures!

and I apologize! 10 lashes with a wet noodle for me! But, I am 13 weeks pregnant, and having a bit of a rough time of it with the sickness and sleepiness! I swear I will be back again more when I have more energy.

In this case, no news doesnt neccessarily mean good news. The permanent teeth are in, but giving me problems. For some reason it will not stay tightened. This is not normal, as it should be nice and tight, always, being at the end of all of this. The doctors arent sure what to do with me (as usual). I just keep going in to get it tightened over and over again. It is frustrating and scary to say the least.

They think the issue is the fact I only have one implant on the right, because we lost one in between the far right implant and the middle one. So it is doing all the work for that side of my mouth. Unfortunately, there is not enough bone in the area to put another implant in (my idea) which is why we lost that one in the first place). So you can see why we are at a standstill right now.

Here are a couple of pictures. This one is of my panoramic, you can see all of the metal (titanium bar, and the 4 remaining implants of the 5 they initially put in), as well as the lone implant on the right doing all the work for my entire lower jaw. You can see what the issue is when you see the huge gap, I'm sure:

The permanent bridge before it went in. The metal holes are where they stick the screws through that then screw down onto my implants:

And a belly pic of me at 13 weeks with our last baby, just for posterity, and because I am so excited in the midst of all this anxiety over what's going to happen with my teeth:

I'll keep you guys posted more when I know more about what they are going to do with me. Thank you for remaining my faithful readers!