I couldnt sleep last night.
It's my own fault. The way I deal with some things is to just not think about them or look at them. Well, what I should have done is look at what the doctor was talking about yesterday and I just didnt do it, so I am not *quite* sure what he is talking about. So I tried to look in there last night. Well, I can see a LOT of metal down there and I dont know if its the implants or if its supposed to look like that or what but it wasnt just 2 cm- it was a LOT of metal showing...is it more of the plate exposing itself already or what?
I am so freaked out and just feel sick all the time. I cant eat, and I am just always feeling like I want to throw up. I feel another surgery looming here...another skin graft at best to cover it back up again or...worse if I get an infection in there.
Please send good thoughts my way. I have come so far, and I just feel like I cant go on more if anything else bad happens.