Day 2: Getting ready for tomorrow

Man, I titled this 'day two,' but how many days are in 18 months?? How long have I been going through this? It seems like forever.

Today is picture day. I went through my computer and compiled some pics, I will share a few with you here. I have only been in front of the camera a small handful of times since my surgeries, but feel I should do it more as part of my healing.



November of 2004 (I am in the middle):

Pregnant with my son, in Jun of 2005, before my surgeries began:

This is me with my son in Dec of 2005, 5 months after my first big surgery. This was when I was able to wear a denture and felt *ok* about myself still:

My son and I recently; you can see how the bar looks and my chin is mostly just jutting out:

It is getting harder to keep my mouth closed as my bottom lip sinks in with my chin, and it hurts to purse my lips to shut my mouth, its also hard to smile right:

So.....tomorrow.....phew. Big day. Tomorrow is when we will find out if the bone morphogenic protein did its job and whether or not they can begin the process of reconstruction! This is basically D-day for me. I have waited so long. I have tried not to get my hopes up, but I have nowhere left to go BUT up. I have been getting more and more depressed as the days go by. I just don't know how I will react if I dont have enough bone there yet.

Bascially what I have ahead of me is:
1.) Get enough bone for implants.
2.) Implant my lower teeth again.
3.) Put an implant in my chin to fill it back out again.
4.) Injections along my jawline (it has healed crooked, one side higher than the other) to make it even again.

Each step in itself is a couple of surgeries so I am facing most likely 5-7 more surgeries here once they begin. But I am ready....I hope tomorrow is good news. I will let you know.